Saturday, October 29

a full bloom lily ; Lilies are the flowers of the spiritually advanced. They are also the totem flowers of mothers (especially new ones), fertility and nurturing. Lilies are also appropriate flowers to present during weddings as they are symbolic of unions, partnerships, and long lasting relationships. Give lilies to new mothers and brides-to-be; share the symbolism of these beautiful blossoms with them, and watch their faces light up with delight. still in the mood of graduation. still in the mood of happiness. thnx for the flower familia! :D

blank title, blank letter.

to whom it may concern,
it was one day back to 3 years ago. somewhere i saw your bright eyes and smile.which makes me stunt and smile too. dan kat situlah everything kind of began. a very happy smile whilst up to a week will be seen on my face, and i know for those who knows will be annoyed and im sorry for that. really do, but that is me. untuk bahagia berjumpa dengan apa yang saya suka. it makes my heart burst!

to whom it may concern,
im sorry untuk everything. doing everything secretly. including all the watching, looking and all sorts of other things. sungguh tak elok, tapi itu je yg saya buat. n i promise you, im not going to do it more now. enough is enough. im letting you go. and for that, this letter is made special for you.

for the first time, i think i really do like you. memang betul punya. im not hoping that you like me back pun. its oke. to know that you are out of my league, it make me realise, you're not for me (cewah! ayat memang baik punya la kan) you're too kind, dan saya sedar orang yang baik is for someone yang baik juga dan i know im not that baik. takkira definisi 'baik' itu sendiri dari sudut apa. im not that qualified.

seronok untuk saya tengok awak seronok but u know something, there are times when i feel my heart broken masa tengok awak. let it be history. the main point here is i want you to know that saya pernah ada crush on you and i really do like you and im really glad that u dont know it. thats all.

p/s : i love you. (dont ever find this thing)

3 years satisfaction in one day.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives,
Where we're gonna be when we turn twenty-five

alarm pagi dah berbunyi. pukul 6. mata dah terpisat2 sebab malam tadi tidur lambat. tired eyes. need to be covered. thinking~~~

I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.

bersiap, berbaju kurung, selendang dibelit dan jubah dicapai bersama topi segi empat yang tersimpan kemas. today is my C day!

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out because were on a different track

awak akaun, awak kewangan, awak seni dan mungkin awak perbankan.

And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now because you don't have another day

with high hopes that u'll be there too.. with high hopes to see you for the last time too..with high hopes to smile for you too.. coz we'll never be across each other again for this coming years....

Because we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love but it came too soon
And there was me and you and well we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone, with me
We'd get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels.

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
Come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.

watching all of us, going up to the stage. wide smile, bright eyes, both hands spread to receive ONE thing! OUR SCROLL!

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school,
Still be trying to break every single rule?

during the time in the dewan, i was thinking, this is my 3 years present to my family, 2 star is enuff for now, try again this coming exam!

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's our time to fly

And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we've
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

dear my dais either A, B, or C, batch 2008-2011, 3 years with laugh and tears, 3 years with sweetsour memories, friendship is the best thing to be cherished!

Wednesday, October 26


around 9 am this morning, we arrived at UiTM Shah Alam, for the event of taking our robes. sampai memang morning, but due to certain issues, kami sedikit terlawat dalam pengambilan jubah.

barisan yg tak serupa barisan, kalah rupa ular kena palu. but we managed to get through, depan panasnyer...nasib baik tak hujan je during waiting in the lines tu... punyalah ramai para graduan yg duk sibuk amik jubah..

n there it goes, waiting in the lines, waiting n waiting sampai tiba turn and we all pon amik jubah n saya dapat size quite besar (M pun kira besar) since jubah mmg besar pun but oke lahh....

and after dah amik2 jubah tu, we all pun keluar lah.... n di sana, i see u...hahhaha.. in red shirt, with jeans and sneakers. thats it. thats it. im glad i see u n im glad im ready for the things that i'll do... big smile on my face for almost a week maybe... sooooo happpppyyy! :D

Sunday, October 23



this one should sound fun. i guess.
satu kawan saya cakap, sound something like this, "kalau ingat-ingat(or is it kira-kira) balik boleh buat buku kan list aku ni" (edited version by me of course)

list ape? list bozo-bozo.. hahahha... tak ada lah... just something weird punya list.. so list tu just letak tepi.

we have unlimited wants.but we lack of sources. we need to make choices. and we will choose the best one and we have to forgone the other choice(s). theory eco. basic. fundamental.

this one sound a bit more weird. this one my theory.

heart = source. list = choices. the best one win = bestest choice. others = need to be forgone

hahahha...sungguhlah tak beradab kan theory suddenly appear in my head. ini sume disebabkan oleh satu orang kawan saya yang memulakan conversation yg sekali lagi sungguh tak beradab. hahhaha

one thing. buat masa sekarang ni forgone is the best thing untuk dilakukan. jgn like, TER-like, intentionally-like or whatsoever, cuz u'll never know apa yg akan happen in the future, since one hour from now pon is future kan... and we dont have the time machine untuk patah balik.

be 21, already 21, and in the path to be a grown up.

sekali tak sekala, fikir macam kanak-kanak jugak kan? seronok. tp in some cases, jadi 21 tahun.

kenapa instead of fun ttbe bunyi macam serious ni? hahahaha... nevermind...

CC, cik D, awak rase ape patut awak buat sekarang? do reply me in any method yang awak rase awak boleh reply pada saya. :D

Thursday, October 20


having dinner with complete family without any awkward feelings - priceless.

yesterday BEL's class, there was this article relating to effects to the children of broken family. masa baca tu tak ada la rasa pape pun, since dah used to it. but there are some time when this kind of feeling somehow show up like ntah-tak-tahu-kenapa. its like bila pikir-pikir balik it goes like this,
'oh! rupana dah lama sangat i dont have family dinner,'

but since memang ade reasons for this then the feeling kind off masuk-balik-dalam-dalam-and-takkan-keluar.. hahahahah...

what would be the priceless things for you right now? bak kata Wan, "nothing is coming" which means, i cant even think of any for the time being. ahhhh~~~~

but there's something i think (tadi kata nothing is coming, ttbe ade i think pulak? hahahah..sungguhlah bertarabur) sangat priceless to me, my faith, toward Allah The Almighty, in the process of making it better. Do help me out.

Wednesday, October 19

one word. loyal.

ear-buds yang tersumpat dalam telinga kiri dengan kanan dicabut perlahan. jari lembut membuat slide di atas ipod touch 3rd generation, simbol Pause disentuh perlahan. Suara vokalis Oasis terus membisu.
tangan di tolak lurus kehadapan, mematahkan tulang-belulang yang sedikit lenguh. Buku, kertas, pen warna warni, post it note dah bergelimpangan bebas atas meja belajar. Note Audit Evidence tak sentuh lagi tapi google chrome dah terbuka kat depan mata.
"i choose lappy instead of book". Button ENTER ditekan dua kali. Status Updated!

Upcoming test dah berlambak tunggu hari. Next week, next two weeks, before mid term break and after. memang berderet. Kalau fikir busy memang lagi ramai yang busy. Kalau fikir penat 100% sure lagi ramai yang penat. but what to do? our priority as student is to STUDY.. aite?? righto....

err? one word? loyal? ni kes dah dok teringat2 dengan i-learn punya topic for marketing punya subject. this word keep coming as one of my answer to the lecturer. jawab ape sampai nak guna word loyal bagai??? loyal to product. loyalty. haremmm... ntah pape jawapan aku...

kalau loyal to product still tak kisah lagi. loyal to person(s)? urm.. no comment...

im not the kind of person that have this loyal-tism in me. im not the kind of person who think that stick to one thing is the best choice for me. im flexible. too flexible. but when it comes to something that i cant even resists myself, this loyal-tism hidden in me will emerged drastically. yup! and that something caused by something that... let it be history.

so, ear-buds kembali di tarik. masuk ke dalam telinga. Button PLAY disentuh. Wonderwall kembali berkumandang.
Post-it note di tarik.

You don't earn loyalty in a day. You earn loyalty day-by-day.- source: Google

Sunday, October 9

a month in melaka.

urghhh~~~ huarghhh~~ here i am again ( masa sampai kat tol ayer keroh melaka) and here i am again ( bila nampak bangunan 16 tingkat UiTM Bandaraya Melaka) Opps! pertama kali jejak sini menyambung degree. Alhamdulillah, nikmah Allah itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk kan. hanya kita mungkin tidak sedar.

celik-pejam-celik-pejam, dah sebulan dekat sini. semester 3 bidang kira-kira debit-credit tapi macam budak semester 1 yang macam baru habis sekolah. culture shock? not really, just something new which is kena berebut naik lif with outrageous cold punya suhu. serius weyh~ sejuk! (bak kat Dato' Mizan, kat sini sejuk macam London, student siap pkai jaket bulu-bulu) hahahah.. masa dengar memang gelak betul, tapi masa dah kena mengigil tak hingat dunia...

but one problem when, bila air-conditioner rosak, yup, u guessed it! memang panas, tapi tu baru panas dunia kan?

a month kat sini? apa jadi? A LOTS! part from waking up early in the morning( early sangat ker?) tak berapa la... n sleep during the sun is almost up? (bulan still terang kat langit gelap tu sebenarnya) NOT YET! benda tu sume masih belum di lalui since this is still early in the semester... but then, a few presentation dah buat with some new faces, which is some good experiences for me in building my confidence level.

second week, kitorang pergi picnic, around Pantai Puteri, patutnya Pantai Klebang, but then change venue pergi pantai puteri, nasib baik dekat, so tak kisah la...hikhikhik...

and on the end of this month im going to have my first graduation ceremony. ho-yeahhh! memang tak saba, but also nervous sangat! counting the days? of course! Alhamdulillah, even tak daoat 3 stars then its oke! i've done my best, dan rezeki tu hanya setakat tu je kan, who knows during my degree, InsyAllah, 3 stars for me, Aminn~!