tomorrow : 17th of november 2011, BEL Encik Jeyaraman, ECO Miss Nurjila.
Test 1 , Presentation on chapter 4 ; elasticity.
presentation, almost done. just a little more of information to be prepare.
Test, urmm...... finger crossed.
merely an opinion, merely a fact.
(bahana belajar BEL untuk test, this two word keeps on dancing in my mind, and suddenly dapat relate dengan latest incidents in my life.
merely, hanya sekadar.
things doesn't really go as we planned kan? sometimes langsung tak menjadi but sometimes Allah memberi nikmat dengan it all happens according to plans.
dan hati manusia ni berubah. dan hati manusia ni tak pernah puas. on what? it depends.
recently, orang paling rapat hurt me the most all over again. untuk kali ke berapa? don't ask. it hurt me a lot. terkejut? sikit la sebab all this time saya memang sedar akan keadaan dia yang memang begitu. kerap dan terlalu selalu begitu. is it because im already 21 then my reation is a little bit different compare to almost 7 years before? kalau dulu, the only thing i can do is crying. orang cakap nangis tak berlagu, yup! masa tu its just merely tears. a lot. kerap.selalu. thinking of what will happen in future at that time memang hurt me the most. what will happen to me dengan my current situation at that time. a broken family untuk kali kedua (pada masa tu) and now. maybe a broken family cum brake all my feelings left toward dia buat kali ke-3. dont ask how it hurt sebab setiap kali bercerita titisan air akan keluar. the truth is im too disappointed. dengan apa yang berlaku.
i have no attention untuk menghalang, tapi boleh tak for this time, untuk kali ni SAHAJA, stop all this. stop doing the same thing all over again. i've lost my confident. i've lost my trust towards you.
i've no attention to be rude. merely a word, PENAT. untuk menghadapi all this all over again. Allah tu Maha Adil. Terlalu adil. Maaf ayah.
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