Truth hurts

Is it really comfortable or is it a denial.

Been thinking of these lately. Recently.

Despite of everyone (not literally everyone, but everyone here is people around me. close to me) been asking on questions of "kamu bila lagi?" "mak doakan dicepatkan jodoh" "bile nak bagi kad kawin" "adik nak tunang, kamu bila pulak?" and i will always reply,"mestilah nak kawin, mana jodohnya?" "meh la kenalkan sesapa.." "takkan nak kutip jodoh tu tepi jalan atau pilih kat kedai?".

There are times which I've been doing the thinking of do I really want to get married? Do I really really trully want to? now? For what sake? For whose sake? My Mak? My Ayah? or everyone yang tanya? or wasn't it suppose to be for myself? I'm at the age of good to be married. But then again, I am at the age of good to be married. That does not justify of why should I get married now. I really do think that I'm still a child. Not matured enough. This matured here define so many things for me.

Preparing for marriage seems so dreamy, so pretty, so happy. Pretty bridal cloths. Pretty make-up.Nice pictures and happy faces during the ceremony. Its something really really seductive. To have it as your own. But then, the after-math is much more important.  After-math of the ceremony.

Am I really matured enough?

1) Matured to be accepting someone new to be part of my whole life
2) Matured to be accepting things which does not qualify to my expectation
3) Matured to be accepting others (new family) to be part of my whole life
4) Matured enough to handle all marriage problem
5) Matured enough to have children
6) Matured enough to learn how harsh or shit married life can be

Married life never seen so easy for me. Read the word of seen there. I've normally see a broken married life. From my own family, immediate families and let along the others.

Even it started off with a dreamy loving couple, or it started off with your first love, I've seen and heard of more broken compared to the happy ones. "One or two does not justify how married life can be. Everyone have their own story to tell". Not denying that. Its just seem a bit scary over the time. The commitment it holds. The commitment we have to hold. Both individuals.

"As days is not only filled with rainbows, there are more days which we have storm, rain and drought over our calendar. That is how married life will be. Not only married, even now that is how our life runs. "

But another question here, Am i ready? Do I have high expectations? of myself? or to my future partner?

Never been into any serious romantic relationship in my 29 years of life. Only crushes to ones who doesn't even know me. So, that does not count as experience. So, at this age, next question come along, does that matters? Do that really give impact to what I'm experiencing now? As we ever involved in any romantic relationship gave us the confidence of getting into more serious one, the last longer ones?


Afraid of broken marriage, which then leads to broken family.

Nufab : 29/10/2019

Trip to Seoul,Korea 2019 with #einteringinseoulagain

Bila last post kat sini? Kalau debu tu boleh ukur, fuhh.. memang tebal gilos.. pasti..

So get back to the purpose of updating, this one as a log i say. To remember, on the tips and tricks to travel, (in case datang lagi di masa akan datang) here again. #einteringin was once used in year 2017. That was the first time i jejak my foot there. Seoul. and this year, once again #einteringin used, however with betterment which is #einteringinseoulagain.

Ok. Jom?

In travelling normally ade 2 benda penting yang people normally wanna know.

Satu - THE BUDGET.
Dua - THE ITINERARY.

Benda-benda yang I will jot down as details as possible. I know ramai je yang memang dah share on the tips and tricks travel to Seoul ni. Oh well, hey, travel never gets old. Masih ramai lagi yang belum jejak tanah 'winter sonata' dan maybe masih ramai yang nak search about it kan.

So untuk perkara SATU;

Trip kali ni was with my familia. Ayah, Abang, Alan Alin the twin and ME (of course!). Jadi kami ada total 5 orang semua sekali.

Flight ticket 100% on Ayah as he decided to belanja on that. Our trip was on 30th April 2019 sampai 6th May 2019. it was a 7 days 6 nights punya journey.

Flight ticket kitorang beli masa ade Air Asia sale on OCT 2018. Around 6 bulan sebelum trip la kiranya. Untuk 5 orang termasuk makan and luggage dan insurance (Luggage -- pergi 20KG / balik 30KG -- under seorang sahaja punya nama to save the budget) we manage to secure harga total RM4470.00. Kira kalau devided by pax around RM940 return ticket untuk setiap orang which for me kira murah jugaklah.

(Flight details)

As for our budget;

This is the initial plan of our budget. Setiap orang contribute RM2,500 which this one includes the shopping budget which is RM1,000 per pax. So untuk total kitorng ade RM12,500 untuk trip ni.

But by the end of our trip our Korean Won masih berbaki banyak and after changing it back to Malaysian Ringgit we have manage to save around RM450 each. Maknanya, our total budget is on at RM2,000 per pax. Jadi, if includes flight, RM2,940 all-in.

Benda ni jadi sebab the shopping part which highlighted in YELLOW was a variable one. Where as the ones highlighted in GREEN is the fixed ones. Since I am the only girl in the group and talking about Seoul, so i think I'm the only one yang memang shopping extra sikit compare to my siblings la kan. Diorang more to beli simple souvenirs while me? I bought quite a few of beauty products (HHAHAHAHA -- terpengaruh harga murah sikit dari M'sia)

As you can see, dalam budget tu banyak KLOOK di situ. ini sharing tak berbayar yer, tapi i memang rasa KLOOK saves up my money for this trip. Very convenient and hassle-free punya apps. They even cater for few countries. So, kalau nak check it out, can try to Google it up, or kalau malas, ok.. I put the link here -- https://www.klook.com/en-MY/

Yup! This time punya trip, the itinerary was all done by me. I decide the day to go to all the places and how to go there and etc. This trip memang tak pakai tour guide. Everything was done all by myself. From booking the hotel until topup-kan all their T-money dekat train station. Basically, jadi tourist to my own family la. Sebab I was there once, so this time around I challenged myself to do it alone. 

Studying the train station punya laluan adalah sangat penting yer adik-adik sekalian. Since kita memang akan guna public transportation all days, everydays. 

So, for this time around, this will be enough. Akan update lagi untuk details lain and break down of the itinerary for all 7 days. 

custom-made

Assalamualaikum,

How long has it been? from my last post? But i guess no one care right. Never mind. This is actually a place where i can recall back all the good things happening to me. Throughout my current life to be more specific.

It's devastating.

Buat masa ni terlalu banyak rasa kecewa dengan diri sendiri. Untuk semua yang berlaku. Untuk semua benda yang diambil mudah dan remeh. Untuk tidak menghargai sesuatu yang dah diberikan. Peluang tu. Berapa banyak kali kena bagi baru nak rasa menghargai?dihargai? 

Appreciating.

Appreciating=accepting everything given to us. Dan sebenarnya kita betul-betul put in heart yang semua benda yang kita dapat is actually dari Dia. dan orang yang memberi tu hanya orang tengah untuk menyampaikan pada kita. Kan?Tak kisah la in what terms pun benda tu terjadi. As in, ada orang datang dan mengadu kat kita yang kawan atau sesiapa jer mempunyai sesuatu perangai yang membuatkan orang lain tak selesa dengan dia. And suddenly bila fikir balik kita mungkin pernah buat begitu dan kita rasa okey je. Pernah fikir tak yang sebenarnya Allah gerakkan hati kawan kita tu untuk bercerita dengan kita dan bukan orang lain sebab Allah nak kita sedar apa yang kita buat tu salah. Awak nak rasa how much Allah sayang sangat-sangat pada kita semua? Selain dari udara dan nyawa yang Dia bagi kat kita everyday, every second, look at diri kita sendiri. Look at everything yang jadi pada diri kita setiap hari, setiap waktu dari celik mata sampai tutup mata. Dari apa yang awak makan, bualkan dan lakukan. Dengan syarat kaitkan balik dengan Allah. Dari seremeh-remeh benda hingga sebesar-besar keputusan yang perlu awak buat sepanjang hari. Kucing datang meleset-Allah pesan rezeki kena kongsi sama-sama. Hari yang sangat stress dengan kerja dan masalah dunia sementara-Allah pesan balik semula pada Dia 5 kali sehari. As kita ingat Allah kita actually build dalam diri kita untuk sentiasa berfikiran baik terhadap setiap yang berlaku. Kadang-kadang kesusahan untuk kita adalah kesenangan untuk orang lain. Bukan as in revenge or so on an so forth. As in kereta kita rosak dan kena hantar kat mekanik-Susah kita kereta rosak-senang untuk si mekanik sebab rezeki mekanik tu hari tu. Kan? Kenapa complicates kan your day dengan benda yang memang tak kekal kan?

Chances.

Peluang tu kadang-kadang datang sekali, kadang-kadang berkali-kali sampai kita biarkan benda tu berlalu macam tu je. Ada sebab untuk setiap yang berlaku kan?Kan Allah dah cakap. Jadi kenapa pertikaikan lagi? Orang cakap-seperti menidakkan takdir. But then think again, kalau benda tu memang kita dah put all our 110% effort dan tak berjaya, it meant to be. STILL! OPTIMISTIK-lah! a success can only happened if YOU, yourself reflects back on what you're doing. Allah pesan lagi, benda yang kita rasa baik untuk kita belum tentu baik untuk kita and vice-versa. you planned, i planned, we planned, but Allah is the The Greatest Planner of all kan. Jadi? fikirlah. 

 Regards,

NuFAB

 

try to relate to it

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la
It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la
It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful 
jason mraz / life is wonderfull

its been a while,

Assalamualaikum.

Sudah lama menyepi kan.
Sudah lama dibiarkan kosong tidak bertulis.
Sudah lama untuk tidak diendahkan.

Kita merancang dan Allah itu sebaik-baik perancang.

Pernah dulu, aku terlalu terkilan dengan keputusan daripada mak dan ayah.
Tidak membenarkan aku untuk menyambung pelajaran dalam jurus fesyen atau seni.
Sedih sehingga menangis dan malam sepatutnya aku boleh bersedia untuk interview aku habiskan dengan menangis dan melalak kerana ingin lepaskan geram. Sungguh jahil waktu itu.

Dek kerana tidak dibenarkan menyambung ke arah yang aku inginkan, jadi aku memilih untuk menyambung jurusan perakaunan Namun, setiap kali soalan yang berkaitan dengan cita-cita mahupun perancangan masa hadapan terutama dari sudut kerjaya, aku sering kali mengeluh dan berkata, "saya tak tahu" atau "saya tak minat sebenarnya akaun ni, saya masuk pun atas dasar untuk mengikuti kehendak mak dan ayah" ( sekali lagi aku gagal dalam menerima kenyataan) dan entah berapa kali bende itu berulang, diulang setiap kali pertanyaan yang sama dikeutarakan.

Dan aku telah pun berjaya menyambung sehingga ke peringkat ijazah. Jurusan perakaunan dan masih lagi segar diingatan yang aku masih lagi buntu dan seringkali mengeluh apabila memikirkan tidak dapat menyambung ke bidang fesyen atau seni.

Kini, selepas beberapa bulan aku tamat pengajian, aku kini bekrja di sebuah butik yang hampir dengan rumahku. Atas bantuan mak yang suruh aku membantu sahabatnya yang sedang kekurangan pekerja. Aku yang mulanya sedikit memberontak kerana seperti dipaksa tetap bekerja di butik bagi embantu kawan mak yang memerlukan bantuan. dan aku mula sedar. Yang Allah tu the Best Planner ever. Kita merancang namun Kun Fayakun itu datangnya dari Allah jua.

Allah tak bagi pada mulanya mungkin sebab aku munkin bukan aku yang hari ini.
Allah tak bagi pada mulanya sebab Dia dah atur perjalanan hidup aku akan berubah sewaktu pengajian ijazahku.
Allah ak bagi pada mulanya sebab Dia dah susun untuk aku belajar dari mereka yang lebih berpengalaman.

Kini aku melihat, bukan mudah bidang ini,
Kini aku melihat, masih jauh perjalananku.
Kini aku melihat, Allah itu mengatur supaya aku sentiasa bersyukur dan yakin Dia sentiasa ada dan perancanganNya adalah yang paling baik.